I Still Believe

You know I just read my post from March of this year.  I give myself credit as I did have a dream of reaching a goal.  However, I did not reach it but I won't beat myself up about it either.  

Instead, I choose to have another dream.  My new dream is quite similar to the one in March.  I WILL reach my goal weight in 2017. 

Dreams keep us going; dreams keeps us reaching; dreams are what drives us to want to be more, to be better.

I DO believe in me.  I believe in my ability to preserver until I reach my personal goal.  

I have spent most of my day studying, watching and listening to videos.  Shocking how foods can literally destroy a life when it was actually meant to sustain a life.  We have messed up folks, we took a good thing and made it bad.

 Today I have learned more about sugar and what it does to the body.  I have been diagnosed as pre-diabetic and I really need to heed all the warning about the destruction that sugar causes to many parts of the body.  

I have a NEW PLAN.  I want to give it 4 weeks before I mention much about the plan. Not that I don't think it will work.....I know it will work.  My only draw back in talking about it now is whether I can stick to it or not.  NO, I am not doubting myself, I just know that I am a full blown "sugar/carb" addict.  Addictions are hard to break, especially going it alone.

I will come back and give my actual start day on this new program.

Think

AND, how true are those words.

My weight number on the scale is all over the place lately.  Not going downward either.  But, that number often reflects what is going in the mouth.

My goal to get this weight off by August 15th remains intact.  Just have to work harder and faster now than having begun on the 1st day of January.

So, today my goal is to THINK.  Think about what I am putting in my mouth.  Think about the health nutrients of my food choices.  Think before I cook.  Think before I eat.  Think about what I want most...weight loss or fast and non lasting taste satisfaction.  Think about making food plans.  Just THINK before I do.

Been a very busy week for me with preparing for our summer job contract.  We had to move the motor home, get everything set up.  Get Winter clothes put away, get the Spring/Summer things ready to wear.  Reorganized 2 storage sheds.  Make a 400 mile trip in 1 day.  Running, running and running for 7 days.  Food caution was thrown to the wind.  Nope, not proud to say that either.  

So, Today I choose to think and begin, yet again, on mindful eating.  

My Bad Choices

Today is March 3rd.  My weight is 153.8#.  January 1, 2016 my weight was 154.4#.

My WI on February 1st was a whopping 157.0.  Oh My Lord...the most I have ever weighed.  I mean that weight was more than I weighed when I was pregnant either time.  And, I gained over 40# with both of my children.

Will I never learn that you have to eat healthy, restrict calorie intake and up physical activity to lose WEIGHT!  It is not a big secret...not rocket science...just a whole lot of common sense information that I know and have know all my life.  Then, why the heck can't I get my act together.  For crying out loud, I am 71 1/2 years old.  I don't have a lot of time left to get this right folks.

Listen to this funny...I ate 4 (not 2 but 4) brownies with walnuts last night.  Yep, that's right, scarfed all 4 down then had to have a few salty potato chips to get the "sweet taste" out of my mouth.  How blasted funny is that!  AND, I am trying to lose weight..RIGHT, what is wrong with that picture.

OK, so tail kicking, blackballing and verbal punishment is over.  

TODAY, I start new.  I have a fresh clean start to my day.  Healthy breakfast done.  Healthy lunch and dinner planned out.  If I must have something sweet later, then it will be a 321 Pineapple or Lemon cake.  Portioned for satisfying that need for sugar. But, there will be no double or even triple portions of it..nope, no more of that.

I am asking God to give me the mental and physical strength that I need to succeed.  I have a goal of reaching 130# by August 15th.  You know that is very doable.  That is about 24 weeks to lose 23#.  Discipline will be required for sure.

Spring is coming and that will mean more physical activity.  I need a lot of that right now.  I have a free gym membership (being old and all) but I prefer outside activity. 

OK, let's see how this goes.   

Bad Weighin

Yes, just like I thought it would be, my weight is out the roof.

9/23/15 - 153.4

9/30/15 - 151.4

10/6/15 - 150.8

10/14/15 - 153.6

I don't think that increase was due only to taking muscle relaxers and pain pills as I was also very careless with my eating. Add to that the fact that I did not manage to get my walks in for several days. BACK to square one as the saying goes.

I will confess that the number on the scale was 155.2 on the 12th.

Been very diligent with my eating on plan as well as daily walking since Sunday the 11th. I am making progress in lowering the number on the scale.

I have decided that I have got to learn to live with some discomfort during this weight loss process. I can not eat any and everything that I want and still be successful. I have got to learn to tell myself no and move on. Today has been a good day and that is what I must deal with...simply one day at a time.

Weekly Weigh In

This week I weighed in on Tuesday.

9/23/15 - 153.4

9/30/15 - 151.4

10/6/15 - 150.8 (loss of .6)

I dread my weigh in this week as I had pulled a muscle in my butt/hip area and I have been taking muscle relaxers and pain pills.

My daily walking has stopped and I have basically been "laid-up" because of this. My heating pad has become my best friend.

It is much better today and hoping that this trend will continue. So far today, no muscle relaxers or pain pills.

Went to a birthday party of one of our co-volunteers here in the village this afternoon. I way overate. So, no more food for me today.

Hoping that by tomorrow, I can start getting my daily walk in again. Going to be extra good to this hip in the hopes that it heals this time with no setbacks.

WI Update

First I must mention that as of today, I have walked for 45 to 50 minutes for 7 out of 9 days.  Woot, Woot!  Up and down hills for 1 1/2 miles.  Three of those days were non-stop with no time out for resting even with the killer hills.

Today is my regular WI day. And it seems that my extra effort to be more physically active and make healthier choices is beginning to pay off.

Stats for this week.

9/23/15 - 153.4

9/30/15 - 151.4

Loss of 2.0#

Still not back to my weight before we left on the NC trip but getting close. Only .6 tenths to go.

On August 26th I started the original journey. I started at 152.8. My goal was to lose 1/2 per week. I gave myself a year to lose 26 to 28 pounds. I am close to being on target and would have been had it not for my failure to stay steady on track while visiting family in NC.

Weekly stats from the beginning date of 8/26/15.

8/26/15 - 152.8

9/1/15 - 151.2

9/8/15 - 150.4

9/16/15 - 154.2

9/23/15 - 153.4

9/30/15 - 151.4

So, here we go into another week and beginning tomorrow, it will be another month. Not giving up as slow and steady win the race.

Rainy Day Monday

Another day of rain or misting rain today.

This morning DH and I walked even though it was misting. I am finding that you just have to deal with some things in nature.

This was the best walk yet as we walked for over 50 minutes today non-stop. Normally we stopped and rested at the top of these killer hills or at least about 3/4 of the way through. NOT TODAY, we forged onward. Made me feel so proud of myself.

I really need to get back to the gym before long as the weather will only go downhill for the next few days. I have a free membership through Silver Sneakers, so no excuse not to be going. I do enjoy doing exercise outside when possible.

So far, this has been a good food day, now to not mess up before bedtime.

My WI will be on Wednesday and I am anxious to see what that number will be.